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So, I just updated yesterday…but I feel like I left out a few things: I really hate being completely honest…and vulnerable, but I’m going to be. Only because I think I’m not the only one who struggles with these things…weight that is. Talking about it openly can help to facilitate the discussion of health in...
So lately I’ve been struggling with a very important issue when it comes to delivery. I am on the fence as to whether or not I should have an epidural. On the West Coast and especially in Utah it is very common for most women to opt to get an epidural for delivery. I myself...
I had an epidural after laboring with my first for nearly 15 hours sans medicine. Apparently, he was also “sunnyside up” and they’d been trying to manually turn him around. After the second time that (horrible thing) happened, I decided I needed the epidural. It was given and I was told to relax in preparation for the actual birth. I spent the next 30 minutes or so waiting for it to “kick in”. The pressure and contractions were so bad that I was vomiting. I continued to feel everything. I even felt the ring of fire. I could feel my legs as I grabbed them to help myself push. Later I assumed that the epidural had just been there to “take the edge off”, but after reading how women are supposed to respond to it, I realize that I don’t think it worked for me.ReplyCancel
I’ve delivered 3 of my babies vaginally and had a epidural with each one. I received the epidural about 2-4 hours before delivering each time I was dilated to at least 5-6 cm. With my first and second I felt everything. Instead of numbing my lower body it numbed my upper. Each time Doctors, nurses and anesthesiologist was shocked because I had complete control of my lower half and it was aberrant that it just wasn’t working. I set straight up in hopes the medication would move down but it didn’t help. With my third we was prepared for other pain management options. The anesthesiologist suggested a combo of a epidural and a interracial one placed in my lower spine one in my upper. This did give me pain relief other than a window they called it in witch I felt pain in my lower stomach in a single area. Then with my fourth baby I received a epidural only because the anesthesiologist didn’t do combos. After laboring 12 hours and me screaming with the epidural the nurse finally tried to consult me about my pain she couldn’t believe with the max amount of medication allowed that I would be feeling anything but I was feeling everything in my lower body again. And I was having trouble breathing where my upper body was numb. I knew something was wrong this time for 2 hours of screaming and crying begging them to do something this pain was different than the other 3 so they finally check me dialated to 8 cm they realize the baby hasn’t moved down at all so they did a ultrasound and found him breech. By now my body is shaking uncontrollable from the pain. So emergency C-section it is and with my condition inability to numb up they would be putting me under for the surgery. I was so upset wanting my fiancee with me. Seeing that I was going to be unconscious they wouldn’t let him be in the room with me. Now I’m 9 months pregnant with my 5th and its been less than a year scents my c-section I’m going to be having another c-section and I’m terrified that if I’m awake I’ll feel everything. But I would love to be conscious and alert and have my hubby with me seeing this will be my last baby. Any advice or suggestions? Having a baby is such a wonderful gift. I would love to be able to enjoy the delivery. Instead of fearing it.ReplyCancel
Brandy,
You have been through so much! Because you have experienced an emergency C-section are they planning for you to have a planned c-section this time around? I know that decision will be made in large part to how your incision was made and if they were able to deliver the baby with just one incision or two. I have family and friends who have planned c-sections for this very reason and have a wonderful experience with it. Maybe this would be a good option for you as you haven’t had a great experience with epidurals and c-sections are done using a spinal block.
If you were further away from your due date I would refer you to Hypnobabies as that is what I did with my last delivery and had such an amazing experience using no drugs at all. Unfortunately this takes time and preparation and with you being in your ninth month you probably wouldn’t have time to prepare adequately.
Please keep in touch and let me know how it goes. The best part of any delivery as you know is the reward at the end. I will send prayers and positive thoughts your way! You can connect with me on facebook “Camille Gourley Walker” or through instagram camille_mymommystyle. Good luck!ReplyCancel
Don’t worry too much! My epidural didn’t work whatsoever but my C-section was a very pleasant experience. I started to feel some pain halfway through and the anesthesiologist was floored, but he gave me IV pain meds to make up the difference. He said my body didn’t react well to them but I didn’t know any better… I felt just fine other than being freezing. Being awake during the procedure is no biggie… You can’t see anything and the meds make you slightly drowsy. I hope all goes/went well!ReplyCancel
I had a combination epidural like you explained… The doctor had a lot of trouble with insertion and tried many times. I was in bliss for half an hour from the spinal block and then when it wore off, there was nothing but pain. The epidural didn’t work… And the anesthesiologist couldn’t fix it because he was in a c-section. It was worse than anything I could have imagined. I had an awful nurse who kept yelling at me, saying the pain wasn’t that bad and that I needed to quiet down and put on my big girl panties because I was scaring the woman next door (this is the same nurse who ignored my complaints of a headache when I was discharged… I ended up in the ER 3 times from a spinal headache that wasn’t diagnosed until 5 days later). I ended up having a C-section because baby boy wasn’t going anywhere and he wasn’t doing well with me screaming in pain. I screamed so badly that when I saw my doctor 2 weeks later he asked me how I still had a voice! Between the horrible labor and botched epidural that made one day’s pain a week’s, I am grateful that I will be able to have a C-section right away next time! The “normal” post C-section pain is very tolerable… Difficulty with movement is more annoying than anything.ReplyCancel
I had epidural with all 3 of my kids. The first one worked 100% and it was amazing, I basically slept until I was at 10cm and then pushed for about 1.5 hours. No pain, no discomfort. I had to look at the monitor to see when to push.
Both second and third baby hurt so bad. I got epidural at 4cm for all 3 of them. It took away the contraction pains but when they started to drop and go through the birthing canal it was the most excruciating pain I ever felt. The epidural didn’t work on it at all. The anesthesiologist came several times to up my dose and nothing worked. Luckily this only lasted for about 30 minutes and then instead relief once baby got out.
I thought he didnt do it correctly the second time. But then the same exact thing happened with my third. I am a red head too btw. I just don’t understand how it can work 100% the first time and then not the second and third time.ReplyCancel
I would just like to point out I was given an epidural which failed to work properly. I was later rushed to theatre and given a spinal by another anaesthetist which also failed to work properly. This meant I just needed an injection to numb my vaginal area and just hope the forceps worked. Not trying to scare anyone but it does happen. I’m currently pregnant with my second and I’ve been booked in to see an anaesthetist while pregnant to discuss my options. It really was traumatic for me hoping second time round it’s easierReplyCancel
Hi Ladies,
Sorry to hear about your trials… I just wanted to chime in that my first epidural didn’t really work (the doctor tried to insert the catheter twice, and kept giving me more meds, and it only resulted in my arms and legs being numb – but I could still feel everything in my mid-section and as I delivered – and it made it really hard to push. UGH.
I was pretty terrified when it came time for my second – but I asked for it early, told him I had trouble with my first one, and it was like A DREAM. (I had a baby girl and was ready to name it after this man!!) It was clear that he didn’t want to talk badly about the first doctor, but it was clear that he just did a great job (and possibly that the first doctor could have been better). I feel that if a doctor is willing to TAKE A CATHETER OUT OF YOUR SPINE AND TRY AGAIN, there’s something to be said about it being placed correctly, etc. My first birth took me 24 hours of laboring and over 3.5 hours of pushing. With intense pain, vomiting, etc. My second was like a dream – slept through a lot of the labor, pushed for maybe 30 or 40 minutes. Barely felt a thing – and she was 2 pounds bigger than my first!! I’d say if you’re having issues, ask if you can see another anesthesiologist!! Best of luck to you all.ReplyCancel
With my first, the epidural wore off after about 20 minutes. The resident re did it a few times during my 26 hours of hell plus a spinal and nothing worked for me. I had been induced bc my water broke. Also baby was sunny side up. By a 9 cm I just couldn’t take another minute and was begging to be put out, I also felt extremely hot like on fire, begging to have water dumped on me. it was taking hours and I wasn’t dilating further so I had c section, they had to put me out. The last couple contractions on the operating table were unbelievably painful, there’s no way I could have done any more. I ended up getting a spinal headache the day we went home. Had to go back in for another epidural to take it away.
With my second I tried a vbac as I thought it was the residents fault it didn’t work with my 1st. But it didn’t work again! And baby was sunny side up again!! So i opted for c section. The spinal also didn’t work enough to numb me when testing me before cutting so they had to put me out again.
I am now going in tomorrow to have my third. It will be nice that its planned, I won’t be in labor… We’re hoping the spinal block works this time and I can stay awake and see at least one of my kids being born! I so hope so. But I’m nervous about feeling pain during it….ReplyCancel
Hi! I was hoping to go natural mostly because I have had bad experiences with anesthesia. I don’t ever get numb for dental work and I felt stitches in my finger despite being injected with the max local anesthetic. Unfortunately I was at 7 cm for 12 hours so the dr started prepping for an emergency cesarean. The anesthesiologist gave me an epidural…didn’t work. Tried again any gave me another one. Nothing. Then spinal. Absolutely nothing. No effect whatsoever. So
He approached me and said “at this point you have a choice, you can go under general anesthesia but it will be risky for you and the baby or you can endure the pain of the cesarean. I felt everything…And eventually blacked out. It was terrible:ReplyCancel
I have had only one child. I had an epidural at the beginning stages of pain. It worked for about 10 minutes, so they gave me another. This one numbed only the right side of my body so they told me to lay sideways and let it numb the other side. It did not and I was in so much pain. They decided to give me another because i was in excruciating pain. Well, needless to say, that didn’t work so they asked if I wanted another one. Of course not! I didn’t want to hurt my baby so I endured the pain and had a healthy baby girl. The doctor’s told me that if I have another baby, to tell the doctor that epidurals do not work for me and to ask for the pill combination. I do not plan on having another baby but they never told me why the epidurals didn’t work. I had “carpet burn on the right side and had stitches on the other side. I had to take a pair of socks to the bathroom with me for a month to bite down on as I peed, as it hurt so bad. Years later, I had a kidney stone and they gave me the liquid morphine. That didn’t help the pain in any way. When I asked for more, the doctor said no. I heard her talking and she thought I was a drug addict. She told me that there is no way that I could still feel pain. Only when she was out of the room and heard me crying telling my husband to tell her that I don’t do drugs, did she allow me another round. That didn’t work either. I could barely lat still during the MRI but was embarrassed that she thought I wanted only drugs. Does anyone else have this problem? I rarely go to the doctors as it is (maybe three times in my entire life) unless I am in dire pain and can barely walk. Now, I feel like I can’t go at all without them feeling like I only want drugs.ReplyCancel
When my first daughter was born my water broke at 1 am with zero contractions. I want to the hospital and the nurses immediately placed me on pitocin. Contractions were very hard. I was dialated to a 3 and had been in labor for 10 hours. I finally requested an epidural. It did NOTHING! I was in labor for another 14 hours with no pain relief. Than 3 more hours of pushing only to be told I was going to have a ceserean. My daughter was finally born. Fast forward 18 months later at a different hospital with daughter #2. I decided to try VBAC. Contractions came normally this time but two weeks late. My nurse broke my water about 2 hours in and contactions came full force. I was dialated to a 4 and requested an epidural. AGAIN it did nothing! I complained to the nurse and a different anesthesiologist came in to take that one out and put another in. Again, it did absolutely NOTHING!! Labor ended in another cesarean. Either I am extremely unlucky with anesthesiologist(which is extremely unlikely) or something is different with my body.ReplyCancel
Im speechless after reading all your comments about epidural not working!!! Mine didn’t work either! It was a traumatic experience for me, first child, 36hrs of labor, 1:30hrs pushing, got my epidural with 7cm dialated, the doctor broke my water and contractions were unbearable. I was screaming so much and the doctor told me to “control my paint, stop screaming” I wanted to punch him. I tried the epidural first time in between the worse contractions and it didn’t work, he tried again and nothing… by this point I didn’t even know that could happen. The nurse and the anesthesiologist were very sarcastic thinking that I was lying. By this point I just wanted to squat and start pushing but I had to push laying flat down because I had the “epidural”. After a 4th degree tear my baby came out healthy and beautiful. Now Im 4 months postpartum and when laying on the ground I can feel both spots where they tried the epidural. Anyone else still feel pain were they fot the epidural? As a woman I really feel that we should talk more about our experiences.
Thank you for sharing!ReplyCancel
I had 3 kids, my first 2 epiduals did not work, very little. When I told the anesthesiologist with my 3rd baby I’m not sure he believed me. UNTIL, I was a hour in and refused the catheter because I could freely move my legs ans pee using a bed pan lol. It definitely wasn’t working. And this was not a one time placement thing. 3 times it did not work for me. Novacain does not work well at the dentist for me. It does eventually work after about 8 shots of it. Luckily though I had a great anesthesiologist because he came back and checked on me several times and ended up giving me several other medications into my epidual until one of them finally worked. I have no clue what it was, BUT for anyone who has this issue, push for relief because there are other meds they can give that will probably work for you. I thought I was doomed with my 3rs but the experience was ridiculously better! ReplyCancel
I was given 2 epidurals in a row with my first kid and neither one worked at all. Ten years later, hoping it was the anesthesiologists fault, I got another with my second child. It didn’t work at all. I felt everything with both kids. Wondering if I should even bother trying for my third kid. I seriously doubt it would work, therefore isn’t worth having a needle jabbed into your spine for no relief…sigh. Is it me, or the anesthesiologist? I don’t know!ReplyCancel
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Today I would like to welcome back one of our awesome contributors, Brittany Case. We have a vastly larger audience these days, so I’d like to re-introduce her (so, this will be redundant for those of you who read her previous post here) As a kid my big sister was always my confidant, my co-conspirator...
How far along? 17 weeks Maternity clothes? This is a maternity dress! I am on the hunt for some nice maternity shorts (thanks for all of the facebook help, I will be hunting at Ross very soon!) Best moment this week: Realizing that it has been almost two weeks that I have had any bleeding! Sleep: Needing it, loving it, and only interrupted by...
Camille you look splendid and you irradiate positive vibes all around! You look divine! I’m your newest follower by Bloglovin by the way.Hope some time you’ll stop by and return the love!
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I haven’t delivered yet, but we decided to go natural with this baby (due any day now) and are using hypnobabies. So far I love it. I have horrific back pain throughout my pregnancies. So bad that there are days that I can barely walk. I also usually get horrible migraines. With hypnobabies I have been able to use the relaxation and hypnosis to completely get rid of the migraines and eliminate most of the back pain. I’ll let you know how it goes with the delivery.ReplyCancel
Please tell me all about it! I have the book from my neighbor but have only skimmed through it. Paul isn’t one for blood/labor/pain I don’t know if he would love the whole “coaching” thing, but we’ve done it before unprepared so it can only get better right?
Let me know how it goes! You’re getting really close aren’t you?ReplyCancel
WOW…..congrats!!!! You look beautiful. We are trying for our 3rd. Not so easy this time around. Good LUCK!!!!
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Ten weeks, taken two days before the tear I grew up as an avid journal writer. I started when I was five and something about it really clicked with me. When I first heard about blogs and how personal people were on them I was shocked to say the least. You mean to...
How exciting (and scary) at the same time. i am so happy for you and will be thinking of you every step of the way. Please, Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you. Also when you are up to it, I would love to get together with you guys. We miss you. Take care, and again I am so over the moon for you.ReplyCancel
Thank you Michelle! I feel bad that I haven’t been writing in them as well as I should. Always appreciate your support. 😉
Noelle~I couldn’t agree more. It is a literal power of God here on earth and I feel so lucky to know that I can have access to it in times of need. And I know you understand, I am so happy for you too! <3
Eliza~Thank you! I love seeing your sweet little lady growing too. You are a great example of a Mother!
Kelsey~ Sorry to scare you Hon! Thanks for the love.
BreAna~ We miss you guys too! I am sure we will have to have a least of few bbq's at Dave and Em's house right? Thank you, too.ReplyCancel
Yay! I’m so glad I read this AFTER I already saw you looking cute and pregnant today. So glad everything worked out. I hate that stupid statistic. I miscarried with my first at 12 weeks when I was traveling in Israel and that was one of the first things the doctor said: “don’t worry, it’s normal. One in 4 women miscarry!” Um…. Thanks? It was fun to meet you today, I really wished I had more of an opportunity to talk to you some more!!ReplyCancel
Hi, this is me. Not my typical tightly cropped, ultra flattering image, but the real deal (also, not the image from my profile page, conveniently taken prior to me starting fertility and getting pregnant with the twins.) I’m not saying it’s terrible, but it’s certainly not where I want to be. I would be lying if...
Thank you for the “real” post cass. I agree that going through the roller coaster of weight gain and pregnancy can be so overwhelming!
A new top goes a long way and girl you look amazing. Trying to gear up for the whole process again. It’s like a mountain isn’t it?
You are an amazing, hard worker. You’ll get there lady. XoxoReplyCancel
You look great Cass. I am not just saying that to say it like I would write in someone’s yearbook “Have a fun summer! We should hang out sometime…..” NOT. You really do look good. You are beautiful inside and out and I have always thought that. I envy your dimples. I LOVE the outfit. I don’t have a real sense for fashion, but I know enough to know how good it feels to wear clothes that fit-no matter what size I am. It really does make a big difference. Totally agree with you there. Good luck with your weight loss journey. You have done it before and you will do it again.ReplyCancel
Hey there lady!
I love reading your posts!
I too struggle with the weight issue. I start two weeks ago getting back on track, when all my recently bought clothes started to get tight. Heck I loved being able to get smaller sizes and that feeling WHAT AM I DOING EATING ALL THE CRAP!?
Anyways one of my favorite recipe sites is http://dashingdish.com/
Beware she loves things a bit too sweet so I back off all the stevia and usually use a little honey instead.
I love her shakes and her easy Cheesy Burritos (my kids even eat them with the beans in it!!). You should definitely check her out!
Good luck lady! I know you can do it. You are amazing!ReplyCancel
We believe in being honest… And thank you for that! Thank you for helping to motivate me… AGAIN to keep working on the ever going battle of the bulge. Unfortunately family genes play a big part in this battle, but it can be won. It has before and will be again. Just NEVER give up. All of my girls are beautiful! ( they get it from their Dad!)ReplyCancel
You look lovely! Nothing more sexy than a lady who has created life.
“I like me. I think I’m pretty dang awesome actually. However, I really hate this one thing…my size.”
That is EXACTLY how I was before I stopped nursing and was able to lose the weight. Thanks for posting about this hard subject.ReplyCancel
I love this post! When I got married I put on the lbs fast! Then I got my disease thang and the medicine made me gain even more weight! I always joke, I’ve never had a baby but I look like I just had one! I’m always struggling with my weight. I’m currently in the on going process of losin it and liking what I see! I agree with you, fitting fashion helps. I don’t like the thought “when I lose weight I’ll get clothes that I love” no way! Love your clothes now and it will certainly help how you see yourself. Anyway, I’d more than love to do the journey with you! I was just talking to Blake like an hour ago saying I want to make toning and conditioning my hobby! Something I enjoy!ReplyCancel
I love the personal posts! And you are so right about body image being universal for pretty much all women; I’m tiny but still struggle with loving my body too. But I agree, clothes that fit really do make a big difference:) And while you may not be happy with where your body is now, the one thing we don’t see when we look in the mirror is how we look when we interact with others. So you don’t get to see the sparkle you have, and the way you “glow!” And that is worth so much more than what size we are.ReplyCancel
What a completely applicable post TO EVERYONE. I don’t care if you are 10 lbs or 100 lbs overweight, when you feel un-attractive, you have a tendency to dress that way and the cycle just perpetuates itself! I looked at a picture of myself the other day and went HOLY COW! I have seriously put on like 10 lbs in the last MONTH because its been so stressful around here, and I have found myself putting on the raggedy yoga pants and oversized shirts- but I am going to take your advice and work harder on dressing pretty for MYSELF! AND losing weight. Because I don’t feel healthy and after 4 babies my body just won’t jump back into shape! I would love some support group to motivate and share…however only if I am not predjudiced agains because I am not overweight- just unhealthy…and isn’t that just as bad?ReplyCancel
Perfect Post Cassia! I have gained and lost a total of 500 pounds over the past 16 years! And, the weight I gained from the adoption of my son, is the weight I haven’t been able to totally get rid of….go figure. Stress eating? age? I’m not sure, but it’s a battle for everyone living in this day and age with all the crap in our foods – and we don’t have to go out and hunt it with a bow and arrow. No calories being burnt as I sit in the McDonalds drive through 🙂 hahaReplyCancel
This post is sooo applicable to my life right now! I was shopping in Target with my husband and mother-in-law when I found super cute, cheap, colored capris! Immediately I thought, no way. I am pregnant, and will grow, am growing, and I only ever wear the same comfortable thing everyday. Not only that, but I’m a stay-at-home mom. Where do I go to be seen in such pretty things? THANK GOODNESS for my MIL who encouraged to buy them anyway. I did and I feel great and LOVE them! Oh thank heavens for pretty clothes!! And supportive families 🙂ReplyCancel
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Cassia,
I didn’t know you had a struggle with binging/purging and my heart aches for you knowing that it has been such a roller coaster. But one thing I do KNOW about you in that you are one of the strongest willed fighters I know. (And a beautifully, positive person.) I have no doubt that you can do this and be in a happy, healthy place with your body and mind. You are so incredibly inspiring and I just love you.
Thank you for sharing your story, and with such transparency. I have a question for you, if I may, and if you’re comfortable answering it. Why do you credit the HCG diet with your struggle with binging and purging? I ask because I did that diet 2 years ago, before conceiving my daughter, and I didn’t experience anything like that, despite having previously struggled with an eating disorder (Compulsive Overeating with Dissociation), and found that I was able to maintain the basic eating style (veggies, fruit, lean meat, no grains, healthy seasonings) for almost a year (it kinda fell apart at 8 months pregnant because, despite my baby being extremely healthy, I bought into the lie that only having gained 7lbs, and losing 3 sizes, couldn’t be healthy, and I started eating highly fattening processed foods out of fear, which made my pregnancy end in a lot of discomfort for me – and I only gained 3lbs in 2 months). Anyway, I am curious why you believe that the diet was responsible for this issue, as I’ve never heard that before, and am actually planning to do the diet again next month (I had PPD for 5 months, after my daughter’s birth, and gained 56lbs).
Alena, I’m actually really glad you asked and I think maybe I’ll amend my post with the “why” because I do think it’s a very good thing for people to know who might be considering the HCG diet.
For me, it’s kind of a “this is a potential side effect” type of deal. Not that it for sure will happen to everyone who does this diet, but that from my experience and many of my friends, family and HCG online community friends, MANY many people struggle with eating disorders after the diet. A lot of it has to do with doing such an extreme diet and depriving yourself for so long. Part of it has to do with the binge (“loading”) at the beginning of the diet. The concern for many is that disordered eating can lead to an eating disorder, and the 500 cal. hcg diet is so restrictive that it certainly is disordered eating. For me, and I know many others, the idea is that there is such a desperation to lose weight, that you’re willing to do something drastic. It becomes somewhat of a trigger or gateway to eating disorders. For most that I’ve talked to candidly, binging is the problem and for some it’s anorexia. Personally, I technically fell into both (and all three since I would also purge.) I would eat so so few calories during the week, and binge and purge on the weekend. When I originally did this diet, I did it with 8-10 family and friends. ALL but one gained it right back, and the one keeps it off with an eating disorder. Another eventually lost the weight, but she got there through healthier avenues…namely, smaller portions and a whole lotta exercise. 🙂
After coming off the diet for the second time and truly struggling to maintain, even despite my incredibly low caloric intake, I could not keep it off. I did some serious research and chatted with a few health professionals and found that my basal metabolic rate had decreased substantially. Our bodies are really amazing things, aren’t they?? So, if we subject them to starvation, they’ll learn and adapt. So it says, “okay, if you’re going to eat less, I’ll use less.” We’re pretty efficient like that!
So another fantastic side effect that I experienced and is not at all uncommon, was substantial hair loss. I mean…it was scary how much I was losing. Also, my fingernails would peel…that’s not right!?
I will say, that if an individual was considering gastric bypass or something like that, this is probably a safer option. But really, I’ve always known that to make a real change, it has to be for life. I can’t just starve myself for 8 weeks and go back to regular eating, but after the deprivation of the 500 calorie diet, it’s just too tempting to indulge a bit.
I wouldn’t presume to tell you what to do, you clearly know what you’re getting yourself into and how to maintain, I just think that if you’re willing to be a little patient, maybe you’d really like weight watchers or the carb cycling from Chris Powell’s book? (of course there are lots of other programs that are equally awesome, I’m just a fan of those two) I’m really happy with the results so far!! I’m not yet 3 weeks in and I’m down 10 lbs.
I am really sorry about the PPD…I know it’s the worst. And if you’re like me, it’s really a weird thing, because never in my life have I been prone to depression, but that time right after baby arrives is really rough on my body image.
Either way, I hope you’ll keep me updated. Losing weight, however one does it, takes hard work and dedication, and I can always use the inspiration!!! 🙂
Cassia- Bless you for your honesty, because truthfully, you are helping others by being so brave. Like you said, you are not alone. There are a lot of people in your same boat. I have done the whole weight loss thing 3 times as well and it is awful hard. But so rewarding when you do it the right way. You are looking incredible and have always been stunning in my eyes, no matter what the weight. What is inside of your shines through to your outer appearance which is why you are so beautiful. I am impressed with your self discovery, how you educated yourself on what works for you and then applying it. YOU ROCK.
Kali, first of all, thank you and second, you’ve totally been my inspiration!! I even mentioned you in my first post here: http://www.mymommystyle.com/?p=4967 I love what you’ve done and you’ve always done it the right way!!! You’ll be proud of me, I actually signed up for my first 5k!!! 🙂 (only because it’s a color run, and if I’m going to do a race, it ought to be very fun and colorful!!) We’ll see how that one goes and go from there. 🙂 Funny, I used to LOVE running??!?! What?? I was crazy 🙂 I wish I was still that crazy!!
You are seriously amazing! The more I read, the more I REALLY wish we were closer. Dang it.
I think you look great. WTG. I wish I had a talent for writing and putting into words exactly how I feel, but I’m terrible. A lot of this sums up how I feel.
Thanks for posting.
I think I am insulin resistant too! I would love any info you have!!!!
Hi Brittany,
Sorry this is so slow!! I kept trying to reply from my phone, but it just wasn’t working. But now that I have a computer again, here we go.
One of the most frustrating things for me was that when I would go on diets, I would eat super lean, healthy greens, complex carbs etc. I would NEVER go over 1200 calories and yet, I couldn’t lose a lb to save my life! In fact, I even sometimes gained a lb?? I was exercising with personal trainers 3 days a week and working out on my own another 3 days a week. In fact, on the days I worked out with my trainers, I did 2-a-day workouts. All in all, I lost less than 5 lbs in 3 months of that rigorous schedule! My trainers never believed that I was following a strict program and the nutritionists didn’t believe my food logs either. In the end, they all just gave up on me. Only me and my husband knew for a fact that I was following their programs religiously!! I kind of gave up on myself too at the time. So, I went off their programs for another 3 months and at whatever I wanted and gained exactly 2 lbs?? How did that make any sense?? It didn’t…at least not at the time. But then, like I mentioned, I was doing research about pregnancy and pcos and I came across a random article about insulin resistance being the culprit of so many of my problems. After self-diagnosing, I was pretty sure I had it, but then I went to the dr.’s to have some testing done. It originally came back inconclusive, but after a couple more tests it was confirmed. That was about 5 years ago…testing has truly come such a long ways since then!! All I know for sure is that when you go to get tested, be sure to tell the doc to look at your insulin levels, NOT glucose. Especially if you’re already sure you don’t have diabetes, that test will be wrong for a person with insulin resistance.
This gives me a good idea. I know a doctor who has spent a lot of her life studying weight issues and insulin resistance…I’m only hesitant to ask her to write a post because she works at the same clinic I went through to do the HCG diet…while I don’t think it’s entirely horrid, I just don’t think it’s a good solution to most weight problems…so…idk…I’ll talk to her and see if she’d like to write a post on insulin resistance for My Mommy Style. She knows SOOOO much! I’d refer you to her if you live in Utah by chance? She works at the MD Diet clinic in Ogden Utah.
Anyway, One of my favorite things that I found after I learned that I was Insulin resistant was The Insulin Resistant Diet. HEre’s a link so you can see what I’m talking about….It’s not just good because of the diet, but because of the information. I actually think the diet is really great though too…but I just personally always need to mix my diets up so I don’t get bored. 🙂
http://www.amazon.com/The-Insulin-Resistance-Diet–Revised-Updated-Fat-Making/dp/0071499849/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1377616583&sr=8-1&keywords=The+Insulin-Resistance+Diet–Revised+and+Updated
This is also a really great article about insulin resistance and how to self-diagnose as well:
http://articles.chicagotribune.com/2012-10-31/health/sc-health-1031-diabetes-insulin-20121031_1_insulin-blood-sugar-diabetes-educator
You can easily get yourself tested at a hospital as well. What will be really useful about getting diagnosed is that you’ll be able to get a prescription for Metformin (make SURE you get extended release, or you’ll get nauseous!!) which will really help you start to lose weight if that’s your goal, and just maintain healthy insulin levels in general. In fact, I really need to ammend my post to add the fact that I just started taking metformin again since it really helped me lose weight last time, but after all the moving I’ve done, I forgot about it until my mom just reminded me.
I hope these couple of things help out in some way. Knowing if you have it can really help you figure out how to proceed with your goals, whether it’s to get pregnant, lose weight or keep yourself from getting diabetes.